The day I was diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression, my doctor was very understanding but also firm with what my choices of treatment were. I remember her saying that in order for her to prescribe me antidepressants; I needed to get into contact with Talkingspace. Even though I agreed with her, I knew that I didn’t really want to be talking to strangers about my mental health.
After collecting my medication and by the time I got home, I had come around to the idea of getting in contact with them. At the end of the day, they’re trained professionals and wouldn’t judge me. They are there to help in any way they could, I sure need all the help I can get right now!When starting on my medication (50mg of Sertraline), I was well informed about the possible side effects that I could experience. Yet, they hit me hard. I felt completely spaced out, extremely sick, lethargic and my whole body felt heavy. For the two first weeks, I experienced all of this; ontop of mild leg spasms, poor sleep habits and over eating. I had been told that it took a while for them to actually start to work, which I knew was the case; so I didn’t expect to feel any difference right away. Three months into taking my medication, I’m definitely beginning to see how much I actually need them. They help balance out my mood, normally I’m either really low or really excitable/happy, not that often in between. I’ve come to realise that, alongside talking about things, they do actually help.
There have been a few times, I must admit, where I’ve gone a few days without taking my medication because I sometimes feel like they’re not doing anything to help. On these days I have been: overly tired, irritable, agitated, more emotional then normal and restless. It’s pretty scary to come to the conclusion that, to help fight my mental illness, I need medication for the time being. I know that I need to continue taking it, as it really does help. Without it, I don’t think I will be able to cope as well. Don’t get me wrong, I know I would be absolutely fine; however I’m not going to stop suddenly taking them because it would affect me in a negative way.
So, remember that just because you take medication; it doesn’t mean that you are weak or unable to cope. You are more powerful than you will ever know.
Love,
S xx